mile high baby
off to denver tomorrow morning...so much to say about mexico pero no tengo tiempo...lo siento...
i miss erin AGAIN already...can't wait to be home for gooooooooood..
(probably no posting for the week)
off to denver tomorrow morning...so much to say about mexico pero no tengo tiempo...lo siento...
what an amazing day of services yesterday...i have much to say but no time...
the conference began yesterday and it was great
well the evening practice went much better and after putting another significant amount of tacos en mi estomago i am nearly ready for bed...tomorrow the conference begins and i will be in services basically from nine in the morning till late late at night playing guitar and singing and teaching a seminar on worship so i covet your prayers...
this morning we had our first practice and all i have to say is:
hola hola hola...
well, today i did ALL my shopping...getting gifts for about 40 people is no small effort...i also found out that i look like a mexican when i have my sunglasses on but when i speak my english i hear little kids around me whispering `gringo`...they learn their lessons when i beat them like a piƱata...buenas noches amigos
well, im here in mexico...
i'm off to mexico bright and early tomorrow
today i actually drove by a car that smelled like crap...anyways, had to get that out there
yesterday was a perfect example of how competitive i am...this has always been one area in which i've struggled...now, there's NOTHING wrong with the desire to win and playing hard in order to do so but what i'm talking about is the attitude that is more like a nasty combination of pride and aggression...i have gotten a lot better partly because of the aging process and mostly because of God's grace but it still gets the better of me from time to time...
just for future reference and past clarification:last night i got really annoyed - several things happened to contribute to my moodiness and even a spectacular Yankee victory over the hated red sox could help out...i went to bed in a bit of a crappy mood...aaaand then i woke up in the same one....
ok, so back to my story...i get into work and go to pray...but i'm still CHOOSING to be upset and it's hard for me to focus...finally, i decide to just give all the situations to God - i remind Him (actually myself) that i trust in Him and that He can handle everything i can't (which happens to be everything)...soon enough i'm feeling at peace and sorta embarassed about the things that bother me or concern me from day to day...as i prayed i was reminded of the things i've seen on missions trips (i leave for mexico in a week)...i thought of the kids in belize who were ecstatic to get one new tshirt (even if didnt fit them) and how they wore it everyday we were there...i remembered the faces of the kids in ecuador who responded to the altar call because they truly understood what it meant to NEED something...i thought of the little girl in the DR with the most beautiful eyes any of us had ever seen; she also was born with AIDS and is probably not alive as i type this...i thought of the pastors in Cuba who give up EVERYTHING and live on NOTHING so that they can accomplish SOMETHING for God - i remember the one room shacks they live in and how gladly they gave us their only good food and drink...then i thought of the teenagers we met in Belfast last summer who live in daily fear of when and where the next bombing will take place...all of a sudden i couldn't think of much to complain about...
this isn't about you -i'm not trying to guilt you into feeling bad for people with less or make your life seem like it's a breeze just because you have 'things' - we all know that doesn't satisfy - i just can't believe how selfish I can be when there's so much need - i guess God reminded me that when we start looking at ourselves and our own situations too much we really need to be turned outward - feeling left out? go reach out to the unlikable...feeling undervalued? go serve someone...feeling unloved? go love someone!
i'm so thankful that God is active in my life and plays a constant (dare i say subtle?) role in keeping me from being a total failure
of course, then i went to my office and my computer didn't work and the WHOLE process started over again....but i'm learning...i hope
so it didn't take that long for my blog to stir the masses...